Tag Archives: Aging

Potato Miracle

That huge bag of potatoes from a membership store I love but will not give free advertising to didn’t get used up (the challenge with these bulk items) before the red potatoes started softening, sprouting, and maybe even rotting. I had vaguely understood that potatoes grow in the ground. What would happen, since it was now late spring, if I put these spoiling potatoes underground?

I researched. I was told I needed seed potatoes and warned of many evils that would afflict the potatoes if not properly treated. Bury them deep enough, space them right, do all kinds of time-honored orderly things. As a non-gardener except for the occasional what-will-happen-if-I-try-this passion project, I had no patience for all this folderol.

So I went to our compost pile (33 years old  but also not managed according to any more orderly protocol than throwing the next pile of nothing but no-meat/fat scraps on top plus occasional soil if critter action seemed evident). I chopped up the vegetation growing on the least wild left side of the  pile and dug a trench five inches deep and five-ish feet long.

I dumped the spoiling potatoes in the trench. I separated them out a little to sort of fit what the experts said but to do better would have required two trenches, too much ado.

I ended up with a row of jostling potatoes and an occasional few millimeters of soil between. Then I covered them up with the dirt/compost from the trench.

A week later I realized another few red plus some white potatoes in the refrigerator where they’re not supposed to go (so they don’t turn green and poison you with too much of the glycoalkaloid solanine) were sprouting. Okay, time to try a tad closer to recommended protocols. More trenches, but this time in a raised bed in front yard except often shaded. Instead of just throwing whole potatoes in the ground, I looked for promising eyes, cut the potatoes as per directions, and semi-reasonably spaced them.

So: the sort-of-rightly planted potatoes did sprout nice plants. But while we were on vacation deer ate lots of leaves. The plants keep regrowing but so far have only produced skinny roots.

Oh, but in the just-throw-’em-in bed: a root (actually a tuber, part of the stem but underground, I eventually learned) with this pea-sized growth on it. Red. A potato! An honest-to-God potato! I had just been planning to query “How do potatoes grow” because it seemed a murky process, whatever was going on there underground, especially since the raised-bed plants were just doing normal plant things: stems, leaves, roots.

But here. That tiny red nodule. God be praised. In this era twisting through the daily chaos and evils that make my dear once-sunny spouse Joan quote every morning the wisdom of a work colleague who regularly says “We are a failed species”: a miracle. A sign of an alternate reality. A first fruit of the inbreaking realm of the divine!

A nother eek later, after being long uninspired to write anything, it occurred to me “Potato Miracle” would be a fun piece. So I needed a photo. I went digging. Still only raised-bed roots. Compost: No cute pea potato. But then: a large-ish blueberry of a potato. Maybe the pea had grown?

I’m still not sure exactly what’s supposed to happen when. I read that over time the plants flower and wilt and die. I’m seeing a combination of what seem to be rotting stems and still-flourishing ever-larger plants. So only the coming weeks will teach me the full process.

But: I kept gently probing the earth near the maybe-once-pea-now-blueberry potato. And found more. All larger. And more. Still larger. Were they still growing? I don’t know! But I couldn’t bear to leave these first-ever-my-own-grown potatoes maybe to rot. So I gathered them and am eagerly looking forward to a meal of them this week.

A shout-out to San Francisco Mennonites Stephen and Karen Kreider Yoder, who have been doing some fine writing in the Wall Street Journal on the retirement journey. Joan is calling herself fully retired. I’m saying semi-retired because I still run Cascadia Publishing House while streamlining it. The Kreider Yoders, not too distant in age from us, keep giving wise pointers about this stage.

Much of their reporting involves the day-to-day engagements with where to live, mobility, health, downsizing,  money. One factor often implied and occasionally more explicit–as when Stephen ponders the “vacuum” as work activities are left behind–is how deeply all of us need meaning. I find this a huge issue as I make ever larger transitions from what was once a more public life to a more private existence unfolding on a smaller scale.

I’m not sure any of us can fully know the precise ingredients of the meaning we uniquely need. But I’ve been surprised and tickled to learn what potatoes can contribute. For one, they don’t care about what Jim VanderHei of Axios calls  “post-processable velocity—a speed of change exceeding the ability of any individual, company, market or government to fully absorb, understand and respond to it in real time.” Potatoes just take their time, their 60-ish to 120-ish days, no matter how crazily everything else is maybe rocketing off a cliff. 

For another, finding out that they do this mind-boggling thing of both literally turning themselves underground into something I love to eat and becoming a metaphor for what we may find when we dig through the dirt of life brings its own rich meaning, This is meaning much larger than a pea, a meaning that keeps growing as I wait to see just how many potatoes I will harvest this year and how big they will turn out to be.

That was my ending, I believed. Except while I was getting this ready to post there were some days of both rain and sun, the deer-eaten raised-bed plants kept growing, and I thought why not see what’s under there now. Lo, I found a red swelling smaller than a ladybug. But there it was. And then some marble-sized swellings. I still can’t believe this happens.

Raised bed potatoes

Michael A. King, publisher and president, Cascadia Publishing House LLC, writes on Substack and blogs at Kingsview & Co. He is trying out integrating and complementing his blogging with Substack posts.

Getting Through

Years ago after I had published some of her books, I slipped into a talk Mennonite author Katie Funk Wiebe was giving at a retirement community. Although I had long connected with Katie in relation to publishing, I had only met her briefly a decade before. Even back then she was at retirement age and writing particularly on aging. Now in her 80s she was still writing away and active enough to be speaking 1300 miles from her Kansas home.

When I crept into the chapel where I was to help sell her books, I was instantly impressed. Why? Because we often view 80s as winding-down time. Such signals are even stronger as COVID-19 makes some see those over 60 (like me) as having few valuable years left. Yet there was a majesty to Katie that was riveting, even awe-inspiring, as she stood there framed by that head of white hair simultaneously dignified and wild and told her truths. I saw the Katie who in Border Crossing (DreamSeeker Books, rev. ed. 2003) yearned to have done more galloping “at breakneck speed. . . .”

A man likely still older asked Katie this: As we age, as ears and eyes, limbs, even brains fail, how is God with us then? And what are we worth then?

The next questioner wondered what it means to believe God remains present when dementia takes away everything we may have thought of as defining a person.

Katie pondered. She seemed not determined to get answers just right. She just offered the thoughts that came. A main response was to tell of walking with her daughter Christine. After years of failing health, Christine had finally moved in to be taken care of by Katie before dying.

Katie said some days were very hard with not much to be done but get through them. At the end of each day they’d sit with each other. They’d ask what in that day had been life giving, what life denying.

Sometimes they found life-giving things to be thankful for, even if as small as the sun shining. Other days, confessed Katie, they could think of nothing at all. The day had been grueling, even torturous. Those days they’d just sit with and sometimes hold each other and thank God that they still had each other.

In the midst of COVID-19 and so many chapters of the Christian calendar we’ve lived through in recent months, including Lent, Palm/Passion Sunday, Easter, Ascension Day, Trinity Sunday, and more, the Jesus story says that the great takes the form of the low, that God sometimes values the very opposite of what we do, that God is larger than death but also present in death and beyond. I suspect this matters as we confront—often squabbling over political implications—wrenching accounts of persons of all ages, often older but often enough not, savaged by COVID-19 and too frequently taken or grieving one taken.

And I think often that the upside-down Jesus is evident in Katie Funk Wiebe. I see Jesus in Katie’s head of white hair flaring, pondering with her questioners what is left to celebrate when we have little but dim eyes, failed ears, false teeth, a brain that may not even know who we are.

Amid worry that normalcy may not return soon or ever in its old forms, I remember Katie not fixing what can’t be fixed but sitting with dying Christine and even then being grateful for what remained present to be cherished. Both Jesus and Katie are gone now in bodily form, but I sense their spirits living on, intertwining not so much in answers to what lies ahead but in ongoing presence amid whatever each day brings.

—Michael A. King is publisher and president, Cascadia Publishing House LLC. He writes “Unseen Hands” for Mennonite World Review, which published an earlier version of this column.

Good Job!

The going was slow, but I was meditating on how fit I felt compared to when I started biking again the week before.

Some sort of whooshing commotion blew by on my left. Before I knew what it was I heard “Good job!” On she sped. When I crested the hill, she was already far ahead, bike light flashing in the distance like a rocket’s red glare.

How to feel? Affirmed? Ashamed?

Just a week before I had had an appointment to make sure I understood Medicare. Just the day before I had checked our online phone account to see why our landline had been ringing almost, it seemed, every minute. I found some 40 calls. Most were marked “Spam?” and followed by variations on the word Medicare. Many want to benefit from my aging body even as I need to make sure to handle insurance carefully, since my heart may need a new valve.

Good job. I pondered again how to feel. I was certainly tempted to pedal harder and prove how wonderfully I was retaining my youth no matter my body’s age and condition.

I thought about a generation earlier encountering Carl Jung’s idea that an aspect of the first half of life is developing ego, skills, mastery. Key to the second half is falling into soul and spirituality, with ego taking a servant role.

I thought about Jesus and his teachings that to gain our lives we have to give them up, that except a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies it can give no fruit, that the first shall be last and the last first, that rather than amass power for its own ego-driven sake, a true leader kneels before those served and washes feet with a towel.

When I was younger I did seek to live out such insights of Jung and Jesus. But the paradox of pursuing this while developing a career and presence in the world posed complexities and confusions about how to integrate ego with soul. So many of the tasks of life’s first half run more with the grain of ego—its inclinations simultaneously bolstered by a culture idolizing the pursuits of wealth, status, privilege, and power which are ego’s delights. Now Christians court presidents and even Anabaptist-Mennonites long committed to basin and towel are often concluding the time has come to claim our places at the tables of influence and preeminence.

I thought about the final years of my parents, who though passionate Christians and believers in the teachings of Jesus found it hard (as do I) to embrace the reality that at the end there is no reprieve from the body’s failings.

Good job! I decided to smile. I decided to embrace the encouragement. Oh, I’ll still bike and walk and hope doctors and medicines keep me young-ish and vigorous for years yet. But maybe my cyclist encourager generously intuited that in fact at this stage being a failure in contrast to her cycling prowess is nevertheless a success.

You’re getting old, I hear her say. You’re falling behind the younger pack as it becames ever clearer that, as Psalm 103 reminds, we bloom like flowers of the field then vanish with the wind. Still you’re climbing on. Good job, Michael!

Michael A. King is publisher and president, Cascadia Publishing House LLC. He writes “Unseen Hands” for Mennonite World Review, which published an earlier version of this column.

Off to See the Wizard

Enroute to an annual extended family gathering in rural New York and to glimpse a quest for the wizard though we didn’t yet know it, we listened to a nationally broadcast funeral service. We digested an update from friends confronting the prospect that one of them might be gone in the coming year. As we left the warmth of the reunion, we wondered whether next time the circle would be unbroken.

After those hours with portents of death mixed with hints of new life, we headed home. Knowing what vulnerable souls need, Joan said, “Now: I want you to be ready to stop if we see an ice cream place.”

Okay. So we turn the corner in small-town New York. There it is: an ice cream place of nearly legendary size and style. It looks like the prototype for any of the best ice cream stands in the world.

We stop. We use the restrooms. We order our ice cream. I ask for small. It comes with one medium-sized scoop. Just right. Our server interrupts herself as she’s handing it over: “Oh, you ordered small. That’s another scoop.” Off she goes to return with the small: a tower of ice cream on a sugar cone.

I take it to the table. I eat fast. Ice cream starts melting and running. Disaster looms. I go back to ask if I might also have a cup and spoon.

I return to the table. The woman at the next table with her partner laughs and says, “Oh, I should have done that!” We chat  as we savor our cones, trading this and that detail of where we’re headed.

Joan and I settle back into our own conversation while admiring a deep red-maroon tricycle motorcycle parked not too far from their table. Eventually they get up. Now we see that they’re in motorcycle garb. Plenty of leather in jackets and leggings.

We’re surprised. I think we would be on the old side for motorcycling. They, based on skin and hair and wrinkles even more leathery and white and plentiful than ours, appear to be a decade or two older.

She chuckles at our surprise. “We have to live this life while we have it,” she assures us. “We’re in our late 70s. This life’s all we have. Or at least if there’s more we don’t know what it is.”

He hadn’t had much to say up to that point. Now he comes past our table to throw some trash in the basket. He gives us what seems a sly, cheerful look. In an accent that sounds vaguely British we hear “We’re off to see the wizard.”

Back to the cycle he goes. They putter around doing whatever it is you do to get ready to start the engine and head off. We watch with admiration, awe, and maybe a hint of envy. We’re old enough that we’re paying attention to models of aging. We like this model. We tell each other to learn from it.

Abruptly she pulls away from the cycle while he tugs at this and that. She heads back to our table. She leans in. In a near-whisper she reports, “He’s starting to experience Alzheimer’s. We’re out on the motorcycle today for the first time in a long time. He’s been afraid to ride. He’s been afraid he’s forgetting how to do it.

“I told him the only way we’ll keep riding is if we keep doing it. So I ordered him, ‘We’re getting on that motorcycle, and if you won’t do it then you’ll have to ride in back and be my b–ch.'”

Back she goes while he keeps working at remembering what does what and how to start the motor. He thinks the battery’s dead but, she points out, the lights are on.

We feel caught between rooting them on and not wanting to intrude on what seems a sacred and private moment. Eventually we go back to the restroom again to give them space and hope when we get back they’ll be edging out and we can give them a thumbs-up.

They’re gone. We feel pangs as we think how much lies ahead for them. How happy we are that they have managed to pull back onto the highway. What a privilege it has been to glimpse, there with the magic of ice cream, these two modeling for us how to navigate portents of death and still head off to see the wizard.

—Michael A. King is publisher and president, Cascadia Publishing House LLC. He writes the column “Unseen Hands” for Mennonite World Review